I know you’re all probably expecting posts about the Missions Trip I just got back from, and I promise they’re coming… next week?
But today, I have something else on my heart. Actually, it’s more like consuming my mind. Since last week I’ve been an emotional wreck. I don’t know if it’s due to a lack of sleep, medication, stress, caffiene… I’m not sure. But I tear up at just about anything these days.
Music. Prayers. Sermons. Testimonies. Pictures. Facebook posts. Happy children. Love. Stress. EVERYthing.
You ever have one of those days where the sun is shining brightly outside, smiling faces surround you, and you can sense the presence of God… yet it feels like there’s a gray raincloud hovering over your head? You know that God loves you, you know He’s been good to you, you know that everything’s going to be okay… but there’s a quiet hurt deep within that you can’t seem to put your finger on…? That was me yesterday. That’s me today.
I feel like one storm after another keeps hitting me. And I get back up, I trust God… then another storm hits.
I want to scream out: “God, it isn’t fair! I don’t deserve this!”
And it’s then that I hear His Son answer for Him: “Fair…?”